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I left my condo Saturday morning
Coins were clanking in my pocket
I bumped on my buddy on the way to the railroad station
He was looking like he's escaping from everything he'd had
And I asked him where he was going
He told me that he didn't know
But he just couldn't stay there.
In the place where he was always feeling
That one day after him they could come
How in the world can it be
That one can just be born so unlucky
That his life is determined from the very beginning
And he can look in the eyes of who's blamed for that
Only from the sparkling screen
Behind the cracked store's windows
I patted him on the back and started to walk
Staring at the ground
I knew he was following me with his eyes
I knew he was speachl

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# Come Here And Be Quiet
Doze
I'm just floating here cuz I'm feeling so lost
Like an every soul that just can't tell the ocean from the coast
Now I toast for you and I toast and I toast
Doze. Snap. Crack. Oh shit he's overdosed.
Sitting round the table with a huge peace of cake.
Don't look at others eyes cuz looking at my own mistakes
Observing where it's going. Not hoping. Not mourning
Cuz everything is can change on the saturday morning
I wasn't born like this.
Does every motherfucker really think he's a priest
Tell em all! Tell em all that you're king. or you're prince.
All I want is just come there and get it.

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Fucking Dickheads
I can have
I can have
I can have whatever you think I have
Entering a supermarket
I can have a knife to stab you in an empty aisle
But it would make you miserable
So you think, ah fuck it
We're better than this, huh?
We're all people, after all
But pardon me, ain't it always about people
When shit goes south.
Or you think I'm goon.
So what now?
So fucking mean, so fucking lame
Who can blame you for being so polite or so naive?
But I'm telling you, it's a lie
We're not better, we're the worst
I'd better be a storyteller
But this story wants me to be a part of it
I'm so lost, I'm so lost
So what now?
It's not trustworthy
And it's not about trust, it's about worthiness
I want to be a bookworm
But I don't have time for anything I'd want
I'm a resource for this freaking time.
It's slowly sucking all the energy out of me
And turning it into death and suffering
For anybody around me
So what now?
I'm a goldmine
Stuffed with blood
But ain't you the same?
Or you don't believe it, luv?
I'm just playing, it's not for real, is it?
But you're snorting another coke line
And your future is instantly turning bright
Until the first gulp of beer
And then everything is back to normal
Everything is normal again.
Everything is OK.
So what now?
Your action?
What now?
What's next?
I can have whatever you think I have
Entering a supermarket
I can have a billion dollars to give you as goodwill gesture
But you wouldn't believe it, because deep in our souls
We are all greedy fucking assholes
And we know that everybody is the same
Everybody is the same
So what now?
We're alive and hence we're not dead
But ain't we dead because our hearts are still beating
And our lungs still can consume some exhausted air
Like straight from the tail-pipe
Still fresh, still hot
Or because our minds are not clouded
I'm mental, and so are you, aren't you?
Either now, or later
Either now, or later
So what now?
Your action?
What now?
What's next?
I could have whatever you thought I'd have
Entering a supermarket
But after all I've got my shopping bag and some euros in my wallet
To buy some shite because I'm a living exhibit
Of freaking unconscious consumption
And a victim of advertisement and imposing of interests
Boring, huh

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# Evil eye
## allanger
```
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
Ill rape you - thats love
Look at my head - brains off
Flesh and bones - thats enough
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
You woke up - theres no one
So alone - such fun
On the floor - so numb
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Never mind cuz I have none
Always yours - no one
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
No No No No No
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
Im protected by the drugs
Got no home? That sucks
Wanna be happy? Dont give a fuck cuz
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Fucking dumb my way
Fucked your life today
Sick and tired of me?
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Never mind cuz I have none
Always yours - no one
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
No No No No No
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
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If I just had a gun under my pillow
Hello there, what's up mate?
You wouldn't wanna be here, but it's already too late
No worries here, just move towards the lights
It's all fine, but none gonna be alright.
The first thing to learn is how to act
If someone knocks in your door, when no one's expected
Never keen an eye on them all
Never keen an eye on their frauds
Always keen your eye on your door
You don't will, so your wills will not hurt
Nothing's done nothing's gone in court
Not so many ways, the main to go broke
With no future, no belief and no hope
If I just had a gun under my pillow
If I just had a gun under my pillow
Wouldn't it be perfect to be sleeping like a canine
But here is the weapon only for the killer
Self-defensed? You're never gonna feel it.
You don't wanna go, but you may have to leave off
Doing what you love, what you feel what you believe in
Thicker the wall thicker the wallet
Growing so fast, what is even the goal of it
If through the windows of your car you only can see a poverty
Loyalty, you're made of it. So many loyal people spreading loyal teas
Fuck you. You don't deserve to be there
The world would be a better place if you downed the man
If I just had a gun under my pillow
I would be a better me.
I can never know where to go
And what can be made out of it
Rolling and rolling
Following someone to get the fuck away
I could've never seen what you saw
But still blindly trust in you so
After abandoning hope
Just to get the fuck away
But anyway, that's what I don't know for sure

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Long halls - short ...
The wallpappers are cracking while being tore off the wall
Spreading the soft smell of mold that I could've feeled so long ago
I'm moving back and forth to find a way to get out
I think I'm getting closer to becoming a **nomad**

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# Building
```
Brick by brick I was building a temple
While you were messing around building up your own temper.
I was too damn shortsighted but I never needed to see beyond
Acting like in oblivion
I was shrouded in a fog of nonsense, bullshite, n' lies
But I didn't even need to see so why to open my eyes
Just putting one brick on another, that's all mate
Like I need to be gifted not to screw that
Injustice, what a ferocious word, innit?
I was always so lucky, but didn't stop doubting, for a minute
Everything is not going as expected but so be it
You just didn't wanna know, but I just couldn't dig it.
All I ever wanted. What was it?
I could feel it outside, I could feel it outside only
But not letting in, constantly resisting with all the power that my guts consist of.
Fist fighting against the knife aimed between my ribs.
That's followed by a bullet from your rifle.
So one win leads to a yet bigger fail. So I'm trying to break the bullet with the handle of the knife.
Aye, I know it's pathetic, but I'm your creator, so I expect you to respect me.
Respect me despite my rejection of them things I fostered inside you to make myself better
You really wanna take it out on me, don't ya?. Chop-chop, Go ahead.
Cause you just know that if I lose my shit, I won't be able to answer
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# Out of the law
## allanger
```
(verse)
Man I saw you lying in the club.
Drunk as hell, bitten to a pulp
Man I knew that nobody gave a fuck
All of them were sure that you're just a fucking rogue
I had to help you out
I had to tell em all
That you were just a man going out of law
But I was too scared of things that I had to do
Cuz I didnt want to become someone like you
(chorus)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
(verse)
Man I saw you sleeping on the stairs
With a whiskey bottle filled with a nails
I could help you but there was always something else
And I thought that anyway it wast gonna make a sense
I had to wake you up
I had tell you that
It couldnt be a riot
If none could understand
Did something brought me down
Or was it just a shame
To know a name of man
Who had lost his name
(chorus)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
(verse)
Man, I saw you trembling with the cold.
You were smiling from the street you hold
It was hostile but it was your home
Gone forsaken going out of law
It was the fucking end
I saw you lying dead
Now I wanna come back to when
You were my best friend
If only I could know
That it would be so wrong
I would never let you go
(verse)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(4X)
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You could catch a snow flake and throw it like a shuriken
To put out the fire in my eyes I'm no more sure you can
Stop me I'm putting my full metal jacket on
And fly outta the windows like I was never here at home
Time's no longer a thing, cuz It's over now
What's still bothering me, while i'm falling down.
Starting to reflect back to find out why I've made it.
I'm now a plane with just one wing, and no one's gonna land it
The whole city starts to crumble down cuz the earth shakes
Seems like all of us are gonna die. Is this world fake?
Cuz I'm no more scared to see how my past is dying
Maybe I've never succeded no matter ho hard I was trying
Who can tell me, what it's all about
I only know It's all right, cuz I'm no more your dog
Nobody warmed me how far it could go
Nobody warmed against becoming football
Just a one of them I used to say. Just a one of them
It's all about me now i'm becoming simple man
Many things're moving around but nothing moves around me
I would like to be the one with who you wanna talk about it
It's not a runaway
Where are my
Every step I've made is just a step that I've heard about.
I'm so fucking mental that I'm just giving up
The only time I've done my best I've spent a day in the jail
Like standing for what you believe in's no more than dirt on the trail
Let's talk about it, about anything that's fucked up
Then get drunk and pick a fight in that ugly pub
I wished I could've done something great after loosing a faith
I used to fear beiung no one but I'no more afraid
That's just a shame pain

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# Wasted Time
## allanger
```
(verse)
Its up to you no more
Wanna get that high but got that low
Once you realize how much time you've spent
Youll cut it out in the end
Fucking 'brick by brick' make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future now its alright
Destination: suicide
(chorus)
Ive got nowhere to go
Ive got nowhere to go
It's crystal clear
But I can see no road
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
(verse)
It looks like a fucking joke
Ive found a door to life but its locked
I just wanna loose my mind
When they talking bout my rights
Aint no suffering no one suffers
We are ready you wont stop us
You cant kill whats not alive
Shut the door and say goodbye
(chorus)
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
(verse)
Its up to you no more
Wanna get that high but got that low
Once you realize how much time you've spent
Youll cut it out in the end
Fucking 'brick by brick' make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future now its alright
Destination: suicide
(chorus)
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
It a wasted time
(Its a wasted time)
(2X)
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There is no place to hide
Show me any sign that it's alright
I've had enough of breathing heavily under that pressure
I've seen enough to tell when you're at the threshold
When every one I knew was gone, I forgot the way to my home
When everybody told I was so wrong, I've forgotten the place I should've gone

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```
We're here side by side
But you've got a slabber flowing down your nape
We're here side by side
But you've got a slobber flowing down your nape
Marching through the valley where all your relatives
Are hanged by their necks
I would like to know what kind of fear you reflect through your eyes
I remember you bragging about not giving a fuck, still does it feel nice?
Step by step, we're all getting closer to something
That nobody knows for sure, and everyone tries divining.
Why so reflective now. Buzzkiller or what?
I don't mean to bother, but your reflection will matter once you get your knot
I wanna be needing to know
How to use them nasty habbits
Like bragging about something
Mate's bragging bout being in a pen
But would it be no acc
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How're you doing sir? Oh, that chilly night!
The bench reminds you how your lover's died.
Is that a new excuse for how you live your life?
I only have one question, if you don't mind
Can you tell me how these kids alright?
There is no hurry, I bet your schedule's light
I am the only guest, there is nothing inside.
I've been told that you're gray, but I'm colorblind
The life's so hard, I see these tears in your eyes.
It's not a misery, a lack of cigarettes.
Cigarette burns on your hands, they make no difference
Oh, such a poor boy, you're always treated bad.
Is that a child who is so lucky to have you as a dad?
Gotcha, gotcha, gotcha, gotcha, it's not your fault
You didn't even want him, but an abortion you couldn't afford
Or maybe it's too cruel to take someone's life?
Of course, it's better to see how on the street he dies
You're not a broken heart, you're a broken soul
Even not a human being, just a fucking soak
Trying to blame everybody for your suffering
But the only one to listen yto you, is you son
I mean, not because he understands, no way
He's just to fucking young to have something else to say
Brutal nature, nothing more, the food chain
You're telling that you love him, but you're a fucking crook, lame.
Nobody, not even the rain
Is shedding tears over you, ain't it insane?
It won't take any longer, don't bother bout your time
I only have one question, if you don't mind

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I can't turn back unless I'm a driver
The dor is locked but I'm fine, though
Hey boy you don't have to cry now
Hey boy you don't have to cry now
Have a gun and go and go and go and go
Never look back and go and go and go and go
Have a gun and go and go and go and go
Just never mind and go and go and go and go
Feel free to get

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I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
How to dive deeper in the brain
And find a reason to escape
When you're surrouned by predators
You are or a leader or a victim
Just close your eyes and start to howl
And hope you're the one they gonna listen to