do some cleanup

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# --------------------------------------
# -- Inventory for local dresup server (itigris)
# --------------------------------------
---
k8s_master:
hosts:
10.42.82.100:
vars:
node_type: "master"
ansible_user: "overlord"
key_path: ~/.ssh/allanger.pub
ansible_ssh_common_args: '-o "ProxyCommand ssh -o StrictHostKeyChecking=no -o UserKnownHostsFile=/dev/null -W %h:%p 91.232.225.93"'
k8s_worker:
hosts:
10.42.82.110:
10.42.82.111:
10.42.82.112:
vars:
node_type: "worker"
ansible_user: "overlord"
key_path: ~/.ssh/allanger.pub,
ansible_ssh_common_args: '-o "ProxyCommand ssh -o StrictHostKeyChecking=no -o UserKnownHostsFile=/dev/null -W %h:%p 91.232.225.93"'

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---
apiVersion: networking.istio.io/v1alpha3
kind: Gateway
metadata:
name: grafana
namespace: prometheus
spec:
selector:
# Which pods we want to expose as Istio router
# This label points to the default one installed from file istio-demo.yaml
istio: ingressgateway
servers:
- port:
number: 80
name: http
protocol: HTTP
# Here we specify which Kubernetes service names
# we want to serve through this Gateway
hosts:
- "*"
---
apiVersion: networking.istio.io/v1alpha3
kind: VirtualService
metadata:
name: grafana
namespace: prometheus
spec:
hosts:
- "*"
gateways:
- grafana
http:
- match:
- uri:
prefix: /
route:
- destination:
host: prometheus-grafana
port:
number: 80

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apiVersion: v1
kind: ConfigMap
metadata:
namespace: metallb-system
name: config
data:
config: |
address-pools:
- name: default
protocol: layer2
addresses:
- 91.232.225.63-91.232.225.65

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# Cant forget
```
Its the time I gotta take whats mine
I am dreaming bout the places where I will never hide
Get out of my way cuz Ive got nothing left
I am blind I am dumb I am deaf
I am nothing like an old table in your room
I know I cant escape until you want me to
My life is my right but Im under control
I will leave I will rise I will fall
Im not me anymore (2X)
But why still I cant forget (2X)
I am always wrong no matter what Ive done
Fuck the real purpose Im just hanging around
I dont trust anyone cuz every man is a lier
Its kinda magic so set me on fire
Destroying anything in the name of the lord
They told me the best weapon is the dirty word
I was talking a lot but now I understand
My words can be used against myself
Im not me anymore (2X)
But why still I cant forget (2X)
You cant escape from the grave
But isnt it the thing that you craved
The Freedom with no obligations
The hope to escape from no win situations
(2X)
But why still I cant forget (4X)
```

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# Inside of the Plague
```
What about me?
I wont stay
(Go away)
Thinking bout a way
I wont pay
(Go away)
I wanna lay my head
And decay
(Go away)
Im fucking yelling
Cuz Ive got no voice
Ive got no emotions
Ive got no choice
I wanna be
Enemy of the people
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Something more than a ripper
(Public enemy)
(Public enemy)(2X)
It doesnt matter if youre innocent
(Go away)
Was ready to die for this but died for that
(Go away)
Wanted to own something you couldnt get
(Go away)
I wont be sorry
For being prick
Cuz I cant bear
The way you speak
I wanna be
Enemy of the people
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Something more than a ripper
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Enemy of the people
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Something more than a ripper
Inside of the plague
Inside of the plague
Inside of the plague
Aint even darker
(3X)
Inside of the plague
Inside of the plague
Inside of the plague
(Damn motherfucker)
I wanna be
Enemy of the people
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Something more than a ripper
(Public enemy)
(3X)
I wanna be
Enemy of the people
(Public enemy)
I wanna be
Something more than a ripper
```

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# Kill me now
```
The murderers are between us
They send to prison ones selling drugs
Cant feel OK unless Im home
There is no place where I can go
Kill me now
Youre justified if youve got cash
Youve got no money - youre a trash
I wont get down on my Fucking knees
Cuz I dont care about police
Kill me now
Kill me now
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
Government is a problem
The murderers are between us
They send to prison ones selling drugs
Cant feel OK unless Im home
There is no place where I can go
Kill me now
Kill me now
```

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# No Man Never Lies
```
Worlds gone wild
Burn me like Im heretic
Judge me cuz Im innocent
Blame me cuz Im alive
I found a new way
But I was too late
Is anybody here
Who can look in my eyes
The only truth
That I could find
The only way
That I could choose
The only one
Is only you
Its fucking thing
That you should do
(2X)
No man never lies (2X)
I cant see the reason
Kids should be scared on the streets
Why do we need this violence
Does it really make any sense
Dumb people hear
Dumb people trust
Dumb people think
That calmness is the self-defence
Theres nothing left
Theres no one here
Theres no escaping
From the grave
I feel somebody
Watching me
And I dont really
Give a damn
Another shot
Another death
Another bomb
And no one cares
Another girl
Is fucking raped
Another boy
Is fucking killed
No man never lies (2X)
What are we waiting for?
Nobody moves
Nobody cares
The fucking thought control
While someone trust
Theyre sure
Theyre saved
(2X)
Wars always elsewhere
Wars always elsewhere
Wars always elsewhere
Cuz you still cant hear any shot
No man never lies (2X)
```

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# Out of the law
```
Man I saw you lying in the club
Drunk as hell bitten to a pulp
Man I knew that nobody gave a fuck
All of them were sure that you are just a fucking rogue
I had to help you out
I had to tell em all
That you were just a man going out of law
But I was too scared of things that I had to do
Cuz I didnt want to become someone like you
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
Man I saw you sleeping on the stairs
With a whiskey bottle filled with a nails
I could help you but there was always something else
And I thought that anyway it aint gonna make a sense
I had to wake you up
I had tell you that
It couldnt be a riot
If none could understand
Did something brought me down
Or was it just a shame
To know a name of man
Who had lost his name
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
Man, I saw you trembling with the cold.
You were smiling from the street you hold
It was hostile but it was your home
Died forsaken going out of law
It was the fucking end
I saw you lying dead
I wanna come back to when
You were my best friend
If only I could know
That it would be so wrong
I would never let you go
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(4X)
```

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# So what
```
So what now
Left
Left
Left Right Left
Left
Left
Left Right Left
Kill em
kill kill kill
So what now
Now
Fight! Fight!
For your life
Dying with no fear
Living in a lie
Fire! Fire!
Dont be afraid
Once youre dead
You wont die again
(2X)
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Government will dance
On our bones
(2X)
Come on!
There is no reason to survive
The propaganda of another life
The same faces on the screen
I kill them every time I see
Subliminally
So what now
So what now
Fight! Fight!
For your life
Dying with no fear
Living in a lie
Fire! Fire!
Dont be afraid
Once youre dead
You wont die again
(2X)
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Were all stepping
Stepping stones
Government will dance
On our bones
(2X)
No respect for human life (4X)
They dont respect the human life
They dont fucking care about our life
So what now
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# Wasted Time
```
Its up to you no more
Cant explain what youve done
With my vision in your head
Youll cut them out in the end
Fucking politics make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future but its alright
Destination: suicide
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
(Meant to raise us but we slowly go down)
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
(Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time)
It looks like a fucking joke
Ive found a door to life but its locked
I just wanna lose my mind
When they talking bout my rights
Aint no suffering no one suffers
We are ready you wont stop us
You cant kill whats not alive
Shut the door and say goodbye
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
(Meant to raise us but we slowly go down)
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
(Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time)
Its up to you no more
Cant explain what youve done
With my vision in your head
Youll cut them out in the end
Fucking politics make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future but its alright
Destination: suicide
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
(Meant to raise us but we slowly go down)
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
(Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time)
It a wasted time
(Its a wasted time)
(2X)
```

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# Not Alike
Not alike. You tell the see from the river
Not alive, but not yet passed away either
Nova light, but the path is nay clearer
In a glaze, but the truth is still bitter
Whole my life I've been waiting outside. Outsider
Like a foundling sitting under the door. Who's decided
Who has made this unfair decision?
And who could came up with that fucking vow
Which is being repeated by any gull
That is flying away from the ocean
To grab some decaying remains of food
That's been sold 20 minutes ago
By them loyal to unconsious consuption
And by them getting a lot for doing nothing
Running away from the reality in a guff
And being run six feet under in a coffin
I'm slowly joining a legion of drops of rain
Determined to flow down this dirty pavement into the drain.
Poor bastards falling down from the sky,
We are so similar. You and I.
But if life is a bath, I'm not that kind of water
Into that you could want to immerse your whole body
That you would expect to envelop you gentle skin
And in which you would like to drop your crystal tears
Your are Teddy, but I'm a bear
Your are Teddy, but I'm a bear
Your are Teddy, but I'm a bear
I'm a burden, you are bearer
I'm your face, but you are the mirror
And the whole cycle of nothing going futher
My father told me not to show emotions
Because they are signs of weakness,
And even if I'm weak, nobody should notice.
But I'm more that that
But I'm more that that
Not alike. You tell the see from the river
Not alive, but not yet passed away either
Nova light, but the path is nay clearer
In a glaze, but the truth is still bitter
Your gut feeling is just indigestion
After swallowing your pride

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I'd rather die when my soul dies
I'm choosing death
I cannay inhale it I'm getting a stronger rejection
I feel a pain and I know that my lungs can no longer function
Who told me I'm different?
I'm nay different, I'm just overreacting
But Every little things goes hell wrong
Every fucking small thing goes hell wrong
I'm simple, I see a road so I go
I see a mistake so I'm wrong
I cannay inhale it, I'm getting a stronger rejection,
Just outta binge, and straight to depression,
Who's saying I'm a victim,
I'm not a victim, I'm a hero,
What's my superpower,
I was trying to be a non-cliche kind
But I'm done witt the procrastination
Whatta hell is your vision
And how is it different to mine?
Whatta hell are your reasons
And how they are different to mine?

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I left my condo Saturday morning
Coins were clanking in my pocket
I bumped on my buddy on the way to the railroad station
He was looking like he's escaping from everything he'd had
And I asked him where he was going
He told me that he didn't know
But he just couldn't stay there.
In the place where he was always feeling
That one day after him they could come
How in the world can it be
That one can just be born so unlucky
That his life is determined from the very beginning
And he can look in the eyes of who's blamed for that
Only from the sparkling screen
Behind the cracked store's windows
I patted him on the back and started to walk
Staring at the ground
I knew he was following me with his eyes
I knew he was speachl

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# Come Here And Be Quiet
Doze
I'm just floating here cuz I'm feeling so lost
Like an every soul that just can't tell the ocean from the coast
Now I toast for you and I toast and I toast
Doze. Snap. Crack. Oh shit he's overdosed.
Sitting round the table with a huge peace of cake.
Don't look at others eyes cuz looking at my own mistakes
Observing where it's going. Not hoping. Not mourning
Cuz everything is can change on the saturday morning
I wasn't born like this.
Does every motherfucker really think he's a priest
Tell em all! Tell em all that you're king. or you're prince.
All I want is just come there and get it.

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Fucking Dickheads
I can have
I can have
I can have whatever you think I have
Entering a supermarket
I can have a knife to stab you in an empty aisle
But it would make you miserable
So you think, ah fuck it
We're better than this, huh?
We're all people, after all
But pardon me, ain't it always about people
When shit goes south.
Or you think I'm goon.
So what now?
So fucking mean, so fucking lame
Who can blame you for being so polite or so naive?
But I'm telling you, it's a lie
We're not better, we're the worst
I'd better be a storyteller
But this story wants me to be a part of it
I'm so lost, I'm so lost
So what now?
It's not trustworthy
And it's not about trust, it's about worthiness
I want to be a bookworm
But I don't have time for anything I'd want
I'm a resource for this freaking time.
It's slowly sucking all the energy out of me
And turning it into death and suffering
For anybody around me
So what now?
I'm a goldmine
Stuffed with blood
But ain't you the same?
Or you don't believe it, luv?
I'm just playing, it's not for real, is it?
But you're snorting another coke line
And your future is instantly turning bright
Until the first gulp of beer
And then everything is back to normal
Everything is normal again.
Everything is OK.
So what now?
Your action?
What now?
What's next?
I can have whatever you think I have
Entering a supermarket
I can have a billion dollars to give you as goodwill gesture
But you wouldn't believe it, because deep in our souls
We are all greedy fucking assholes
And we know that everybody is the same
Everybody is the same
So what now?
We're alive and hence we're not dead
But ain't we dead because our hearts are still beating
And our lungs still can consume some exhausted air
Like straight from the tail-pipe
Still fresh, still hot
Or because our minds are not clouded
I'm mental, and so are you, aren't you?
Either now, or later
Either now, or later
So what now?
Your action?
What now?
What's next?
I could have whatever you thought I'd have
Entering a supermarket
But after all I've got my shopping bag and some euros in my wallet
To buy some shite because I'm a living exhibit
Of freaking unconscious consumption
And a victim of advertisement and imposing of interests
Boring, huh

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# Evil eye
## allanger
```
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
Ill rape you - thats love
Look at my head - brains off
Flesh and bones - thats enough
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
You woke up - theres no one
So alone - such fun
On the floor - so numb
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Never mind cuz I have none
Always yours - no one
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
No No No No No
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
Im protected by the drugs
Got no home? That sucks
Wanna be happy? Dont give a fuck cuz
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Fucking dumb my way
Fucked your life today
Sick and tired of me?
I aint gonna let you run
Aint gonna let you
Never mind cuz I have none
Always yours - no one
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
Wrong wrong wrong wrong
No No No No No
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
I
Ive got an evil eye
Ill say jump
And youll only say how high
I
Ive got an evil eye
I will look at you
And you gonna die
You gonna die
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If I just had a gun under my pillow
Hello there, what's up mate?
You wouldn't wanna be here, but it's already too late
No worries here, just move towards the lights
It's all fine, but none gonna be alright.
The first thing to learn is how to act
If someone knocks in your door, when no one's expected
Never keen an eye on them all
Never keen an eye on their frauds
Always keen your eye on your door
You don't will, so your wills will not hurt
Nothing's done nothing's gone in court
Not so many ways, the main to go broke
With no future, no belief and no hope
If I just had a gun under my pillow
If I just had a gun under my pillow
Wouldn't it be perfect to be sleeping like a canine
But here is the weapon only for the killer
Self-defensed? You're never gonna feel it.
You don't wanna go, but you may have to leave off
Doing what you love, what you feel what you believe in
Thicker the wall thicker the wallet
Growing so fast, what is even the goal of it
If through the windows of your car you only can see a poverty
Loyalty, you're made of it. So many loyal people spreading loyal teas
Fuck you. You don't deserve to be there
The world would be a better place if you downed the man
If I just had a gun under my pillow
I would be a better me.
I can never know where to go
And what can be made out of it
Rolling and rolling
Following someone to get the fuck away
I could've never seen what you saw
But still blindly trust in you so
After abandoning hope
Just to get the fuck away
But anyway, that's what I don't know for sure

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Long halls - short ...
The wallpappers are cracking while being tore off the wall
Spreading the soft smell of mold that I could've feeled so long ago
I'm moving back and forth to find a way to get out
I think I'm getting closer to becoming a **nomad**

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# Building
```
Brick by brick I was building a temple
While you were messing around building up your own temper.
I was too damn shortsighted but I never needed to see beyond
Acting like in oblivion
I was shrouded in a fog of nonsense, bullshite, n' lies
But I didn't even need to see so why to open my eyes
Just putting one brick on another, that's all mate
Like I need to be gifted not to screw that
Injustice, what a ferocious word, innit?
I was always so lucky, but didn't stop doubting, for a minute
Everything is not going as expected but so be it
You just didn't wanna know, but I just couldn't dig it.
All I ever wanted. What was it?
I could feel it outside, I could feel it outside only
But not letting in, constantly resisting with all the power that my guts consist of.
Fist fighting against the knife aimed between my ribs.
That's followed by a bullet from your rifle.
So one win leads to a yet bigger fail. So I'm trying to break the bullet with the handle of the knife.
Aye, I know it's pathetic, but I'm your creator, so I expect you to respect me.
Respect me despite my rejection of them things I fostered inside you to make myself better
You really wanna take it out on me, don't ya?. Chop-chop, Go ahead.
Cause you just know that if I lose my shit, I won't be able to answer
```

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# Out of the law
## allanger
```
(verse)
Man I saw you lying in the club.
Drunk as hell, bitten to a pulp
Man I knew that nobody gave a fuck
All of them were sure that you're just a fucking rogue
I had to help you out
I had to tell em all
That you were just a man going out of law
But I was too scared of things that I had to do
Cuz I didnt want to become someone like you
(chorus)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
(verse)
Man I saw you sleeping on the stairs
With a whiskey bottle filled with a nails
I could help you but there was always something else
And I thought that anyway it wast gonna make a sense
I had to wake you up
I had tell you that
It couldnt be a riot
If none could understand
Did something brought me down
Or was it just a shame
To know a name of man
Who had lost his name
(chorus)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(2X)
(verse)
Man, I saw you trembling with the cold.
You were smiling from the street you hold
It was hostile but it was your home
Gone forsaken going out of law
It was the fucking end
I saw you lying dead
Now I wanna come back to when
You were my best friend
If only I could know
That it would be so wrong
I would never let you go
(verse)
Going out of law
Going out of law
Going out of law
With no destination
(4X)
```

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You could catch a snow flake and throw it like a shuriken
To put out the fire in my eyes I'm no more sure you can
Stop me I'm putting my full metal jacket on
And fly outta the windows like I was never here at home
Time's no longer a thing, cuz It's over now
What's still bothering me, while i'm falling down.
Starting to reflect back to find out why I've made it.
I'm now a plane with just one wing, and no one's gonna land it
The whole city starts to crumble down cuz the earth shakes
Seems like all of us are gonna die. Is this world fake?
Cuz I'm no more scared to see how my past is dying
Maybe I've never succeded no matter ho hard I was trying
Who can tell me, what it's all about
I only know It's all right, cuz I'm no more your dog
Nobody warmed me how far it could go
Nobody warmed against becoming football
Just a one of them I used to say. Just a one of them
It's all about me now i'm becoming simple man
Many things're moving around but nothing moves around me
I would like to be the one with who you wanna talk about it
It's not a runaway
Where are my
Every step I've made is just a step that I've heard about.
I'm so fucking mental that I'm just giving up
The only time I've done my best I've spent a day in the jail
Like standing for what you believe in's no more than dirt on the trail
Let's talk about it, about anything that's fucked up
Then get drunk and pick a fight in that ugly pub
I wished I could've done something great after loosing a faith
I used to fear beiung no one but I'no more afraid
That's just a shame pain

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# Wasted Time
## allanger
```
(verse)
Its up to you no more
Wanna get that high but got that low
Once you realize how much time you've spent
Youll cut it out in the end
Fucking 'brick by brick' make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future now its alright
Destination: suicide
(chorus)
Ive got nowhere to go
Ive got nowhere to go
It's crystal clear
But I can see no road
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
(verse)
It looks like a fucking joke
Ive found a door to life but its locked
I just wanna loose my mind
When they talking bout my rights
Aint no suffering no one suffers
We are ready you wont stop us
You cant kill whats not alive
Shut the door and say goodbye
(chorus)
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
(verse)
Its up to you no more
Wanna get that high but got that low
Once you realize how much time you've spent
Youll cut it out in the end
Fucking 'brick by brick' make me sick
A brand new day - the same old shit
Theres no future now its alright
Destination: suicide
(chorus)
Weve got nowhere to go
Weve got nowhere to go
Someone fucked up
Building new world
Its just new world disorder
Meant to raise us but we slowly go down
Fucking scavenger watches us dying
Its a wasted time
Its a wasted
Wasted time
It a wasted time
(Its a wasted time)
(2X)
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There is no place to hide
Show me any sign that it's alright
I've had enough of breathing heavily under that pressure
I've seen enough to tell when you're at the threshold
When every one I knew was gone, I forgot the way to my home
When everybody told I was so wrong, I've forgotten the place I should've gone

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```
We're here side by side
But you've got a slabber flowing down your nape
We're here side by side
But you've got a slobber flowing down your nape
Marching through the valley where all your relatives
Are hanged by their necks
I would like to know what kind of fear you reflect through your eyes
I remember you bragging about not giving a fuck, still does it feel nice?
Step by step, we're all getting closer to something
That nobody knows for sure, and everyone tries divining.
Why so reflective now. Buzzkiller or what?
I don't mean to bother, but your reflection will matter once you get your knot
I wanna be needing to know
How to use them nasty habbits
Like bragging about something
Mate's bragging bout being in a pen
But would it be no acc
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How're you doing sir? Oh, that chilly night!
The bench reminds you how your lover's died.
Is that a new excuse for how you live your life?
I only have one question, if you don't mind
Can you tell me how these kids alright?
There is no hurry, I bet your schedule's light
I am the only guest, there is nothing inside.
I've been told that you're gray, but I'm colorblind
The life's so hard, I see these tears in your eyes.
It's not a misery, a lack of cigarettes.
Cigarette burns on your hands, they make no difference
Oh, such a poor boy, you're always treated bad.
Is that a child who is so lucky to have you as a dad?
Gotcha, gotcha, gotcha, gotcha, it's not your fault
You didn't even want him, but an abortion you couldn't afford
Or maybe it's too cruel to take someone's life?
Of course, it's better to see how on the street he dies
You're not a broken heart, you're a broken soul
Even not a human being, just a fucking soak
Trying to blame everybody for your suffering
But the only one to listen yto you, is you son
I mean, not because he understands, no way
He's just to fucking young to have something else to say
Brutal nature, nothing more, the food chain
You're telling that you love him, but you're a fucking crook, lame.
Nobody, not even the rain
Is shedding tears over you, ain't it insane?
It won't take any longer, don't bother bout your time
I only have one question, if you don't mind

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I can't turn back unless I'm a driver
The dor is locked but I'm fine, though
Hey boy you don't have to cry now
Hey boy you don't have to cry now
Have a gun and go and go and go and go
Never look back and go and go and go and go
Have a gun and go and go and go and go
Just never mind and go and go and go and go
Feel free to get

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I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being scared
I'm no more wanna be afraid
How to dive deeper in the brain
And find a reason to escape
When you're surrouned by predators
You are or a leader or a victim
Just close your eyes and start to howl
And hope you're the one they gonna listen to

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You could catch a snow flake and throw it like a shuriken
To put out the fire in my eyes I'm no more sure you can
Stop me I'm putting my full metal jacket on
And fly outta the windows like I was never here at home
Time is no longer a thing, cuz It's over now
What still bothering me, while if falling down.
Starting to reflect back to find out why I've made it.
I'm now a plane with just one wind, and no one's gonna land it
The whole city starts to crumble down cuz the earth shakes
Seems like all of us are gonna die is this world fake
Cuz I'm no more scared to see how my past is dying
Maybe I didn't succeed no matter ho hard i was trying
Now I don't feel that it's a big deal
Now I don't feel that it matters
I remebmer that will to live that I've had
While trying destroying the patterns
That I've taken while being a kid
Looking at the people around
I thought they were willing to guide me
Thru my life but god, i was so wrong
I know you're dancing on the roof
The dance to make it rain
But all i can dive into now
Are just shame and pain
That
It's all me, it's all mine, all yourn. What it's all about
It's all right, cuz I'm no more your dog
Nobody warmed me how far it could go
Nobody warmed against becoming football
Just a one of them I used to say. Just a one of them
It's all about me now i'm bevoming simple man
Many things moving around but non moving around be
I would like to be the with who you wanna tolk about it
Let's talk about it, about anything that's fucked up
Let's get drunk and pick a fight in that irish pub
Let me be your servant cuz there is no place to fall
My letters used to feed your serpant but I still got something more
Than just a shame pain
It's not a runaway
Where are my
Every step I've made is just a step that I've heard about.
I'm so fucking mental that I'm just giving up
The only time I've done my best I've spent a day in the jail

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# Phantom Limb
Look at this, my head came off
And got jettisoned from this fucking ark.
Who's gonna be my plus one now?
Who's gonna be my plus one now?
Who's gonna be my plus one?
Why you're all so fucking anxious?
I've been told they ran out of options.
I am tired of trying to find any reason
For existing of this fucking non-sense
We would send your boy back like a package, mam
But his body got suddenly scavenged
Don't lose heart anyway you can have one more
Even if :wq
Sending the boys back like packages,
I don't give a fuck about coming home no more
:
I'm owing lots but not to medics
My stubbornness is that pathetic
Scraping off the trace of getting
What I can no more explain.
It's like you're coming late
But you still want a batter place
Mate. You just need to spread you power
To the face. To the face.
Skagging yourselves up the night
Don't wanna look back, nothing's behind.
The past's like a phantom limb
And who'll be around to get it grinded
Warmed, and tickleing our veins
It hurts, it hurts, alright.
Abandon self-pity everyone
Who enters here.
No one's frightened Anymore
He's shaggin' off. Staggering home.
Wondering what happend to his
Abillity to dull the pain
With alcohol.
He's throwing flames at what he's ever grown
But the moments too cold so the fire withdraws
Holding hands up under the fire alarm
And with the fucking code red the boy's left alone

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# Damn it was good
```
My life's not poetry
I lived in no powerty
I did no time, I did no drugs,
No clubs, no fights, no run from cops
No slippery path, no bloody bath
I've got the money, I've got a gaff
But I bought that idea of being broke
You can't suffer if you wanna be worth
If you wanna be worth
But damn it was good,
And now I'm totally nuts.
I've asked fot so much
And look what I've got
I've been living a life
Like it's been giving for fun
But now I have no real place to stay
And I just hate hate hate hate myself
when I was asking I couldn't know
That it would be given to me in such a fucked up form
I though suffering is fun
I though tears are sweet
But I didn't think about
Everybody else
How I would look them in the eyes
I did not expect that I could be disgusting
For just being part of something I never
Tryid relating to
I looked aroung, it's all lies
I'm surrounded by lies
Lies Lies lies
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# Scar
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# Shotgun Shag
I'm leaning on the fog
While it's slowly surrounding me.
I hear the dog growling in the dark,
And I'm not driving here. (and I'm not driving here)
The vulture's sitting on the rooftop and hungry staring at the future of mine.
Bloodcurdling he shrieks, from time to time,
It's getting absolutely hollow outside.
(It's getting absolutely hollow outside)
When the fog circle is getting closed
Leaving me with the only option. To pass through the house
The little shotgun shack at the world's end
The whole neighborhood is dead
I don't even need to break-in
The wooden door swings creaking
And sometimes reveals the key
To what's inside, awaiting me
Millions of fleshless hands
Trying to grab me from behind
And once I've given up on struggling
Someone is pushing me so tight
It's so familiar touch that makes me stop looking around
The seen is getting too subfusc and I'm left to succumb
Its better outside
Its better outside
Its better outside
Its better out side
Please pull me back
Someone pull me back
Someone put me back
Where I dindnt have to
Yell yell yell yell
Just to to break through
Swell swell swell swelling death bloom
Recognize me no more
Ive fleed
At least Ive tried
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Someoness pushing me
I am so tired
Every step is sagging when I'm putting my weight on it
And the little cloud of dust is escorting the creaking sound.
Suddenly my eye got caught by a rotten peace of wood
That used to be a handmade railing, I remember how I would
Slide down while no one could see me cause it was already staggering
But I couldn't veil that fact when the little woden bugger
Landed right between my hand and me. I don't remember
What was more scary to admit that I broke a hand or railing
But I was such a gambler and I put all chips on the desk
And since then I couldn't tell the barber's pole from my ass
Burden was all on my breast, and I just wanted to get it past
With this kind of baggage how you'd have nothing to confess
Dear God. Why you've abandoned me, I'm not that much of sinner
I just fucking hate my pickneys and I wanna kill em
A deep crunching noise is being emitted by the shards
From a broken transom window. So the escape route's left behind
Its better outside
Its better outside
Its better outside
Its better out side
Please pull me back
Someone pull me back
Someone put me back
Where I dindnt have to
Yell yell yell yell
Just to to break through
Swell swell swell swelling death bloom
Recognize me no more
Ive fleed
At least Ive tried
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Somethings pulling me
Someoness pushing me
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# Silver Grenade
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# Wrong Shoes
Here comes the phase when
You don't wanna see my face
Beaten down, disgrace.
Not ashamed. That's nice
I'm so close to start telling my whole story
Even knowing that no one will ever really listen to it
Holy shit, I don't know where to start and what to say
I fell like billions of eyes are now starting all at me
All at once. But those belong to them dead.
Am I still alive? What the fuck is wrong with it?
I'm just keep going. But with every step I'm getting closer to them
To whom? I'm not sure, I fell like everyday I am getting closer to death
I'm loosing my consciousness, I'm falling down and hitting my head
But even now the only thing I can think of is how can a man get away with that
If nothing can be changed, I'm afraid to die in them wrong shoes
In them wrong shoes, in them wrong shoes.
I'll better walk barefoot that going out again in them wrong shoes
Here comes the phase when
I don't wanna have a face
Because it's showing too much of that
I don't want you to realize
How can you bloody know
What is the best way to run
Away
What is the best way to end
A day
When all you've got is a
Memory
Do me in and wipe me out
Cut my veins and suck my blood
Turn my flesh into the art
Of tearing inseparable apart
Off you go with all you know
At least in hell, leave me alone
I ain't got much strength to grow,
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How was it?
Chop-chop.

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# Further
- [ ] MEDIUM: Cleanup GitHub
- [ ] LONG: Start using helm secrets
- [ ] LONG: Finish the third part of the Psycho song
- [ ] LONG: Remove Allanger artist from CD Baby
- [ ] MEDIUM: Release "Let Me Kill"
- [ ] LONG: Mix the **Entering a** song
# 04.23.2022
- [ ] MEDIUM: Fix rust-gitlab MR
- [ ] MEDIUM: Configure MIDI
# 04.20.2022
- [x] MEDIUM: Think about criterias for release ratings
# 04.18.2022
- [x] MEDIUM: Add firewall rules to Hetzner
- [x] MEDIUM: Break gum sync enhancement into several smaller tasks
- [ ] MEDIUM: Think about getting rid of Beatstars
- [X] FAST: Backup Minecraft server to the Hetzner Minio instance
# 04.17.2022
- [ ] MEDIUM: Pass 2-3 units from German book
- [ ] MEDIUM: Read the book
- [x] MEDIUM: Finish Shotgun Shag lyrics
- [x] MEDIUM: Clean up the notes repo
# 04.13.202
- [ ] MEDIUM: Find out about a tax declaration
- [ ] MEDIUM: Find out about a condo unregistration
- [x] FAST: Ask Denis about resources for searching for condos
- [x] MEDIUM: Deploy Minio to Hetzner cluster
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# 04.10.2022
- [x] MEDIUM: Start learning German
- [x] LONG: Household chores
- [x] MEDIUM: Cleanup Firefox
- [x] MEDIUM: Cleanup Bitwarden
# 04.09.2022
- [x] LONG: Finish rust-gitlab MR
- [x] LONG: Create a helm chart repo and publish all charts there
# 04.08.2022
- [x] LONG: Move all Ansible roles to one repo
- [x] MEDIUM: Try to create an automatic backup for Minecraft (to the same cluster Minio installation)
- [x] MEDIUM: Start to work on ZSH completions for GUM
# 04.07.2022
- [x] LONG: Init Badhouseplants project
- [x] LONG: Update SSH key everywhere
- Add to auth_keys
- [x] Github
- [x] Gitlab
- [x] Etersoft Gunther
- [x] Hetzner host
- Update on my machines
- [x] Windows
- [x] Arch
# 04.06.2022
- [x] FAST: Create a virtual Vivid Money card
- [x] FAST: Switch all the PayPal subscriptions to the virtual card | Waiting until my bank account is unblocked
- [x] Splice
- [x] FAST: Add a 2-fa to GitHub
- [x] FAST: Move Reddit to Zohomail
- [x] LONG: Finish this [PR](https://github.com/allanger/gitlab-user-manager/pull/32)
- [x] LONG: Discuss BadHouseplants site design | Maybe later
- [x] FAST: Switch Vivid to the German phone number
- [x] MEDIUM: Fix Vivid account after number change
- [x] FAST: Move GitLab to Zohomail
- [x] Move Linkedin to zohomail